I may not understand why things happen. They may not be what I expect/want, but who cares? God knows soooooooooo much more than I could ever dream to comprehend.
I will slip up. I will get frustrated with circumstances. I will lose faith from time to time. I'm human (or as my table at church said last night in response to "why do we try to do things on our own?"- I'm a "stupid human".) God is still sovereign.
I've been spending a lot of time thinking and praying about why support is coming in so slowly. Am I really supposed to go to New York this summer? Or is God telling me that I need to stay in Orlando? I've been looking for a job for months and have had no luck. Now all of sudden "now hiring" signs are popping up all over Orlando...for jobs that are looking for someone like me. Except now is the time when I can't apply for those jobs. "Can you hire me to work for a month, give me a couple months off, then I'll come back in August?"
I don't get it...logically, the "responsible" thing is to stay here & take advantage of the job opportunities, etc., but I'm still convinced that God is sending me to New York City this summer. God is sovereign, and He is the only one who can make this happen. So right now, I'm pressing through the "crowd" and spending time at the feet of Jesus (read Mark5:24-34). And He's teaching me. I'm continually amazed at His love for me. I know me...I know the stupid things I do & think, but God just won't give up on me. It's really humbling.
Okay....this has turned into a bunch of rambling. Short version: I need $2000 by the 25th. God is sovereign. Sit at His feet & listen. The crowd can wait.
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this was a facebook comment in response to this blog that I'm copying here so it doesn't disappear in a few days.:
From Brian D.: I read your note and its funny how God work. For some reason, I felt called to contribute to your ministry this summer despite the fact we will be working together this summer on the same project. I know I still need less than $900 in support but I feel God had blessed my support so much that I want to give back. I'm still waiting on people who said they promise to give to me checks this upcoming Sunday at church. As a poor college student, who is raising support as well hopefully God would like you to still come to NYC with me and that he will bless the $250 I gave online and multiply that to reach the $2000 you still need. 2 Corinthians 9:6-12
My favorite part of this passage is verse 6: "He who sows sparingly will also reap sparingly, and he who sows bountifully will also reap bountifully." Most people operate on the opposite principle which is we will have more if we give less. The only problem with this math is it leaves God out of the problem. Part of what I been asking God to challenge me in is be a regular giver so I've been regularly giving to my friends who are interns or joining staff with Campus Crusade on a monthly basics and despite my already commitments I want to stretch my faith further in being a generous giver and support your ministry. I think there's a sense of joy in knowing you're being a good steward with God's money (because it doesn't belong to us anyways). I can't think of a better way to spend $250 other than furthering God's work through you. May this encourage you to trust in God with your finances and employment hopefully after NYC.
$250.00 Single Gift
Transaction Date: 5/25/2010
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